Posts Tagged ‘sad’


Have you ever had one of those days when you feel so alone?

I am not physically alone.

 I am actually sitting right next to someone..but feel dis-connected.

We had a discussion..not an argument or a fight..just a discussion and I felt like I had no one on my side.

It is such an un-settling feeling

Alone – Adj :   separate, apart, or isolated from others

We have such a great relationship, but money puts such a strain on us.

Will it always be this way?

Make it stop

I want my best friend back with no awkward silences….


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It POURS!!!!


I have talked about our bathroom re-model in prior posts. Well everything is moving along smoothly….that should have been the first indicator!

Complete new floor/sub-floor down – CHECK

All NEW copper pipes and drains – CHECK

Built-In Linen Cabinet – CHECK

Sheet rock up – CHECK

So now we are just waiting to have our NEW tub and shower installed..and we hear………….Drip..Drip…Drip….

Yup, there is a leak, but not with our work, oh no that would be tooo easy! The upstairs shower is leaking and the source has yet to figured out!! We may be facing another replaced shower!!!! UGH!  Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself…I am repeating this OVER and OVER

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WOR-RY  ~ A Verb  ~ to torment with cares, anxieties, etc.; trouble; plague.

Looking up the definition, it really sums it up. TORMENT . It is a feeling that I usually have very little control of, and usually runs wild through my heart. I have overwhelming worry and concern over so many situations, I wish I could get a handle on it. It overwhelms me. TORMENT. Worry causes my heart to ache. Worries over money, my children, our health, my choices, the people I love. TORMENT. Some days, I become consumed, like todayMost days, I can’t even put my finger on what sets it off, what causes my angst. The Bible tells us not to worry, I read the verses  repeatedly, now if I could just abide by it, I would be ok  😦

 25“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?

 28“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

-Matthew 6:25-35

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Today is NOT the day

I was going to experiment with another recipe challenge for myself, but today it is NOT going to happen 😦 I have just returned from Brooklyn to see my brother sworn into the US NAVY, and I am feeling very blah……

Well, I am going to skip to another step and see how much money I need to budget each month when I ORDER pizza!!!! 🙂

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Over the past few days, I have been quite sad. I have tried to ignore it, but it doesn’t go away. My baby brother (okay, he’s 20) is leaving for US NAVY Basic Training tomorrow in the Great Lakes. He will be gone for 8 weeks. I have never gone more than a week without seeing or at least talking to him before! He is my only sibling, and is only 5 years older than my first born. So, he is more of son to me than a brother, if that makes any sense?

The boys grew up together, not me and him. My mom always worked full time, so I always helped out with him. Now he’s leaving. It will be so strange for him to not pop in at dinner or call me with some hair-brained scheme. Like I said, he has never been away from any of us for that long, and he doesn’t know what to expect. My grandmother cries and my parents are quiet

No, it is not the end of the world, I know. But right now, it makes me…………………sad

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