The same but different..

 

Okay, so if you called me right now and said…
“I would like to stick a needle in your foot a thousand times for an awesome tattoo”

I would say..”Sign Me Up!”

But if I receive this in the mail from the pharmacy and instructed to take one injection once a week…

You will find me under the dining room table with my head between my knees 😦

Methotrexate

No, I DO NOT have Cancer, Praise God

But the medicine that is used to treat my Rheumatoid Arthritis, is traditionally used in Chemotherapy. I have always known this, but I have been taking this in a pill form. Lately, my RA has been acting up, so my doc decided to switch me to injection form, which is a bit more potent and effective treatment.  But, opening this up in the mail was a bit startling and scary. I didn’t realize the severity of my treatment, I guess..

Why am I such a baby? I dunno 😦 What’s the difference?

Will I complain each week when Hubs gives me an injection?

You bet!

Will I make another tattoo appointment before Summer rolls around???

Absolutely!

 

 

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Alone

Have you ever had one of those days when you feel so alone?

I am not physically alone.

 I am actually sitting right next to someone..but feel dis-connected.

We had a discussion..not an argument or a fight..just a discussion and I felt like I had no one on my side.

It is such an un-settling feeling

Alone – Adj :   separate, apart, or isolated from others

We have such a great relationship, but money puts such a strain on us.

Will it always be this way?

Make it stop

I want my best friend back with no awkward silences….

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when it rains….

It POURS!!!!

Literally!

I have talked about our bathroom re-model in prior posts. Well everything is moving along smoothly….that should have been the first indicator!

Complete new floor/sub-floor down – CHECK

All NEW copper pipes and drains – CHECK

Built-In Linen Cabinet – CHECK

Sheet rock up – CHECK

So now we are just waiting to have our NEW tub and shower installed..and we hear………….Drip..Drip…Drip….

Yup, there is a leak, but not with our work, oh no that would be tooo easy! The upstairs shower is leaking and the source has yet to figured out!! We may be facing another replaced shower!!!! UGH!  Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself…I am repeating this OVER and OVER

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Worry

WOR-RY  ~ A Verb  ~ to torment with cares, anxieties, etc.; trouble; plague.

Looking up the definition, it really sums it up. TORMENT . It is a feeling that I usually have very little control of, and usually runs wild through my heart. I have overwhelming worry and concern over so many situations, I wish I could get a handle on it. It overwhelms me. TORMENT. Worry causes my heart to ache. Worries over money, my children, our health, my choices, the people I love. TORMENT. Some days, I become consumed, like today. Most days, I can’t even put my finger on what sets it off, what causes my angst. The Bible tells us not to worry, I read the verses  repeatedly, now if I could just abide by it, I would be ok  😦

 ²⁵“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? ²⁶Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life^[b]?

 ²⁸“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? ³¹So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³²For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

-Matthew 6:25-35

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